Yesterday I made a backup on my external hard drive and while waiting I skimmed through some old photos from 2007 and 2008. It is very odd how I felt the need to cut my very long hair. You will say that I am a maniac for doing so but back then I had to get up at 5 a.m. and go to Vienna by train to get to college. Then I returned at 8 or 9 p.m. and would have to work on some projects for school. Simply no time for blowdrying my hair for one hour.
I have had that long hair when I was 8 and then cut it short after seeing "French Kiss" with Meg Ryan when I was 11. To me back then she seemed cute, yet free and unconventional. I kind of liked it that I was mistaken for a boy a couple of times. After that I let my hair grow down to my hips again. I feel more like myself when I have long hair, yet it gets really heavy and lacks volume at the roots. I would not like to spend more than half an hour in the morning to make my hair look decent. You can really learn a lot about yourself when you watch your thoughts while you are thinking about changing your hair.
Hair brings one's self-image into focus; it is vanity's proving ground.
Hair is terribly personal, a tangle of mysterious prejudices. (Shana Alexander)
It´s always the same circle: have long hair, see somebody with shorter hair, spend hours thinking how I would look with that cut, wail and whine into other´s ears for advice and finally cut it.
It brings out the different personalities that dwell within you. You have to ask yourself questions.
- How do you see yourself?
- How much are looking for something convenient/sexy/cute/different? And why?
- What has brought the need to alter your look?
- What changes recently happened in your life that you feel like you need to change too?
For me it was always looking cute. Most times I have seen a movie, a picture, a commercial or something else where I would think "Oh, I would like that!". I was never afraid to go to the hairdresser, because I simply don´t. When I was younger my mother used to cut my hair and now I do it all by myself. It is much more convenient because I can take hours and slowly cut one half inch here and a little bit there until it looks nice.
I had my hair really short in 2009, when Agyness Deyn with her bleach blonde hair was really hip. I loved her tomboy style and her down to earth attitude.
I had to find out where the urge came from to constantly look like somebody else. It is and was always hard for me to "be the same person" for a very long time. My interests change a lot and my views on life do to. It somehow got stuck to my brain that I have to have a role model and look like her.
I think it´s part of finding your own identity and since people hardly ever pop out of thin air to take you by the hand and guide you through, I take myself by the hair *lol*. Changing my hair therefore has always had a much deeper reason and impact than just for outer looks.
Right now I´m letting it grow again. I don´t know how long, but I definitely fell in love with my natural color of hair again. It is soft blonde with a tiny bit of red and brown in it. It is not monochromatic and therefore matches my eyes (they are mainly blue, but have a brown ring in the middle). It all has to do with the mori girl movement.
Live is a journey and your hair is a little documentation of it.
How have your hairstyles changed? Are you happy with the way it is? What would you like to change if you want to?
Hugs to you!
My hair is thick, wavy and unruly. For years and years I either had it too short (ugh) or long in a ponytail with bangs (dull) because nobody knew how to cut my hair. I never wore my long hair down because it would just fall in my face. Finally, after we moved in February, I found a high-end salon around the corner and paid to have a nice haircut by a professional. It's neither short nor long, but kind of in between. I love it.
ReplyDeleteLisa, I remember when you told us in Suzi´s chat that you would move! Kudos to you for doing it!
ReplyDeleteHair is SUCH a difficult topic! I would never go to a hairdresser because I am afraid they will mess it up. I can never quite describe it the way I would like to have it, so there will always be a difference between what they do and what it was like in my head. Do you want to tell us where you went in case others might need a cut too? ;)
Hi Natalie.........if my hair reflected my journey throughout life and I believe that it does then I should start writing a book. My hair has played a huge part in each growth stage in my life and events occurring as well. I am at a sage in life where i really know myself now and love the skin i an in. I am natural now ( no chemicals) and really care for my hair and treat it well and thus treat myself better in turn. This life is a journey and I plan to make a good one. Thank you for sharing your story..........hugs
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Chelsea, well probably we should write a book about it. Or a blog about how our life influences our hairstyle. I´m with you: no chemicals anymore. Never ever again. I came to love my natural hair color and I will never alter it again. In fact I look forward to having white hair :D
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