Yesterday I made a backup on my external hard drive and while waiting I skimmed through some old photos from 2007 and 2008. It is very odd how I felt the need to cut my very long hair. You will say that I am a maniac for doing so but back then I had to get up at 5 a.m. and go to Vienna by train to get to college. Then I returned at 8 or 9 p.m. and would have to work on some projects for school. Simply no time for blowdrying my hair for one hour.
I have had that long hair when I was 8 and then cut it short after seeing "French Kiss" with Meg Ryan when I was 11. To me back then she seemed cute, yet free and unconventional. I kind of liked it that I was mistaken for a boy a couple of times. After that I let my hair grow down to my hips again. I feel more like myself when I have long hair, yet it gets really heavy and lacks volume at the roots. I would not like to spend more than half an hour in the morning to make my hair look decent. You can really learn a lot about yourself when you watch your thoughts while you are thinking about changing your hair.
Hair brings one's self-image into focus; it is vanity's proving ground.
Hair is terribly personal, a tangle of mysterious prejudices. (Shana Alexander)
It´s always the same circle: have long hair, see somebody with shorter hair, spend hours thinking how I would look with that cut, wail and whine into other´s ears for advice and finally cut it.
It brings out the different personalities that dwell within you. You have to ask yourself questions.
- How do you see yourself?
- How much are looking for something convenient/sexy/cute/different? And why?
- What has brought the need to alter your look?
- What changes recently happened in your life that you feel like you need to change too?
For me it was always looking cute. Most times I have seen a movie, a picture, a commercial or something else where I would think "Oh, I would like that!". I was never afraid to go to the hairdresser, because I simply don´t. When I was younger my mother used to cut my hair and now I do it all by myself. It is much more convenient because I can take hours and slowly cut one half inch here and a little bit there until it looks nice.
I had my hair really short in 2009, when Agyness Deyn with her bleach blonde hair was really hip. I loved her tomboy style and her down to earth attitude.
I had to find out where the urge came from to constantly look like somebody else. It is and was always hard for me to "be the same person" for a very long time. My interests change a lot and my views on life do to. It somehow got stuck to my brain that I have to have a role model and look like her.
I think it´s part of finding your own identity and since people hardly ever pop out of thin air to take you by the hand and guide you through, I take myself by the hair *lol*. Changing my hair therefore has always had a much deeper reason and impact than just for outer looks.
Right now I´m letting it grow again. I don´t know how long, but I definitely fell in love with my natural color of hair again. It is soft blonde with a tiny bit of red and brown in it. It is not monochromatic and therefore matches my eyes (they are mainly blue, but have a brown ring in the middle). It all has to do with the mori girl movement.
Live is a journey and your hair is a little documentation of it.
How have your hairstyles changed? Are you happy with the way it is? What would you like to change if you want to?
Hugs to you!