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I have never been keen on sports to be honest. My hands are too small to be of any use when it comes to any kind of game that includes throwing or catching a ball. Neither am I very fast. PE in school was a dread. I did not care which team I got voted into as I wouldn´t be playing along anyway. During volleyball I would duck down so that the girls behind me had to run in order to catch the ball. If I stood at the back the ball would either hit me in the face or I would somehow manage to get it away from me.
It took me ages to find out that moving my body doesn´t mean that I have to do it in a team. Or that it has to include any sort of game. I don´t know why PE got stuck in my head like this, but it always made me think that I was not made to be bouncy ball.
Which is actually not true. I just prefer some calmer kind of physical activity like yoga, long bicycle rides through the fields, nice walks where I get all the snails and bugs out of the way (and I talk to them. "Shoo, Miss Ladybug, this is no place for a grand dame like you!") As of recent I started to use my body. Really giving it a good stretch every morning and evening, drinking enough water, going outside. I have had the wrong image in my head. My past has influenced my present far too much. My thoughts were sad.
As everywhere in life there isn´t just one way to do it. Or even a right way. I am not the kind of girl who will run a marathon and then brag about it for the rest of her life. My way is subtle and slow. Doing it for myself, not for a number of miles that I made or the amount of push-ups that I can do. I will not count the amount of calories that I burnt. I will not measure how much body weight I lost after 3 months.
I am doing this because I have a body and I want to appreciate it in every way I can. This is about the experience: Feeling your body, breathing deep into a stretch, noticing how you´re getting more flexible every day. Of course it includes going through the initial phase of pain. I have been feeling like a noob cowgirl with sore inner thighs for the past week as I am working on doing the split. (I´ll get there when December comes around!) Every day is so worth living. Getting your butt off that chair and take responsibility for yourself in every way. Sounds good? Feels good!
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This month´s tumblr crushes are:
♥ mysuitcaseheart-chloejane.tumblr.com beautiful, calming, exquisite.
♥ continuemovingforward.tumblr.com
♥ tokyocult.tumblr.com from very beautiful to slightly disturbing
♥ fairy-perfection.tumblr.com auto-play @top left corner
♥ mayinthebluesky.tumblr.com Nomen est omen. I could reblog everything.
♥ snowskinned.tumblr.com good for Sunday mornings
♥ poppiish.tumblr.com cute asian fashion (Turn auto-play off @ left bottom corner)
♥ ghibli-gifs.tumblr.com DO I NEED TO SAY MORE?!?!?
♥ thefrenchpear.tumblr.com a kiss of mother nature (auto-play @ bottom)
♥ whendreamsflyhigh.tumblr.com pastel pink cuteness
♥ fuckyeahhistorycrushes.tumblr.com History is boring? As if!
♥ dicette.tumblr.com animals and food. Somehow very french.
♥ oh-misscinderella.tumblr.com girly and pink!
5 things I am grateful for today:
- not needing to cook today. On some days it´s just perfect if you give yourself permission to take a day off and to come back refreshed with new ideas.
- Finishing my illustration. Finally!
- Started to watch Yuru Yuri and it´s hilarious. :D
- Let go of the thought that I ABSOLUTELY RIGHT NOW have to find an apartment. Enough with the stress, the perfect one will come around eventually.
- 10 hours of sleep. I slowly get to be my old self again.
Happy weekend!!!
XOXO,
Haha, this is exactly how I feel too. PE was such a nightmare. All the other kids made me think I was rubbish at exercising and somehow I believed it. After high school though, I started to work out from my own home too and got hooked. And I'm also happy that I don't have any pressure to lose weight either. I'm just doing it because it's best for my body.
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It´s so sad how this group dynamics can make you loathe exercising when it actually could be something that you enjoy.
ReplyDeleteI'm quite the same. School PE stole all my confidence in my athletic abilities. I'm glad to hear that you're learning to appreciate your body now
ReplyDeleteVolleyball......For me, it was a nightmare too. All the teenage-aggressions from my teammates exploded in this game. Eeeeew. I was always afraid to attend a team. Even when I just think about teamsports, pics from muscular, agressive and screaming girls who almost collide hardly while chasing the ball pop in my head. But I liked running and athletics. Unfourtanetly, all sport teachers I head thought that volleyball was the most important discipline and so we spent more time on this as on every other part of PE. But the school couldn`t destroy my confidence because at home I had the possibilty to ride our horses. Nevertheless it`s good to hear that there are more people out there who didn't enjoyed the PE as well.
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