Things I am Grateful For – July 6th, 2012

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I´ve been doing my "5 things I am grateful for today" for over a year now! Wowsy! I´ve been thinking of brining them together on a weekly post. Because sometimes there are more than just 5 things and sometimes they need more explanation than at the end of a post.

I´m not sure what to name it yet. Maybe something like "the Gratitude Journey" or something. I´ll come up with it. In order to celebrate the anniversary (over 2 months later, ermherm....) I made a little video.




I will be signing the contract for my apartment on Tuesday. There is some part of my brain that doesn´t realize that this is actually happening. But when it does, I need a letout. Which mostly happens to be dancing and singing the weirdest songs. ("Hellooooo....DOLLY....This is Louissssss DOLLY!")

Recently I spend a lot of time offline, just sitting with myself somewhere silent or harvesting peaches or reading books about interior design. There is something waiting inside of me that will show me where my path is about to go, but I´m not there yet. I get very thrilled when I watch Etsy´s Handmade Portraits series because I would LOVE to have such a life. To sit at home, doing my thing, struggeling, working hard, but being ultimately fullfilled with what I am doing. I´m just not yet at the point where I know what everything will look like.

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But even the chance alone, that I have the opportunity to become everything that I want is something that I could spill tears of joy for. Even right now, I feel them coming up. I am so priviledged with this life of mine. With the troubles and struggles and blessings that have brought me here. To the point where I can just sit and listen to what the Universe wants to tell me. What it wants me to be.

I know that this is something that will not happen overnight. But I know it will include my hands and probably not as much the computer as it does now. Maybe it will take me months to figure it out. Maybe I´ll get there when I´m 50. I can wait. I will learn every lesson very carefully so that I will be ready when the time has come.

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Be happy and grateful for the small and the big things in your life. I know that we live in a society that has taught us that complaining is the big deal. Listen to conversations. Even when I hear people talking about their vacations, they come up with the stories of what went wrong first. Like if that were the more interesting story. As if talking about good stuff made you a rude, egocentric and superficial person.

What????

No, don´t even get into that. Let´s not be drama queens. The world has enough pain to offer on its own. We don´t need to bathe in drama. I decided that before I start to complain about something, just so that I could talk to somebody, I will rather say nothing. I will rather smile. In silence.

I will not bring more suffering to this world than there already is. 

Amen.